Once you’ve read several different books or articles on success or watched different speakers teach on the subject of attaining that illusive wonder called, success, you start to notice common threads in what is being said or written. One common thing that I’ve noticed is to be thankful now for things that haven’t even happened yet. Read More
I’ve taken some time away from writing recently. I’ve had a lot happening this summer from moving in with my girlfriend to starting a new job to going back to grad school to leaving that new job because I hated it…
Lots of things going on. Read More
My issue is that I focus on the one bad thing when there are at least one-hundred good things.
My mind stretches toward perfection, a deep yearning for something this world does not contain.
There is pain, suffering, and sorrow.
There is not ONLY pain, suffering, and sorrow.
There is also joy, peace, rest, excitement, and fulfillment.
My focus easily rests on the former list yet evades the latter list with an intensity I can’t describe.
To me, if not everything is great and every day I’m not praised, I feel worthless.
What an insane way to be.
Why can’t I just be?
I just want to be.
No matter what is going on around me or within me… I just. Want. To be.
What does it mean to be?
It’s right there. Right here. This moment. No matter if it’s a storm or the shining sun, to be is right here. Now. Here. No matter what is happening. To be is here. To be is now.
I’ll be happy if all of the conditions of my life meet the standard I’ve set in order to allow myself the luxury of feeling happy. If the bills have all been paid and I have money left over, if I have the job I love and don’t hate, if I’m in relationship with the perfect person, if I’ve achieved every dream I’ve ever had, if my kids are themselves happy, pleasant, and self-sufficient, if, if, if… Read More